Happenings (来)

I guess it's about time I wrote on DAILY SHIT THAT HAPPENS EVERYDAY LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGER DOES. So here goes, what happened in the past week, included is the documentation of what I have to rant about.

First of all, I'm back at school, yes I am, I swear, to those that still don't believe, I can print out the timetables for you to see and give you a glass of coke to prove my honesty and sincerity in my words. Please believe me, I am back at school.

3 weeks have passed ever since school started, wow, didn't know that time can pass THIS fast. I always thought that time would go slower when you are truly spending time, but this wasn't what I was looking forward to actually.

3 more weeks and it's already term test, then another 6 weeks and its the end of the semester, I have passed 1/4 of a term without really studying about anything at all. Sure I pick up new stuff here and there, but I don't seem to be doing things fast enough.

But these days, I feel like I'm seriously getting a lot more to do. Like my life is actually being filled up with activities that I can't even imagine myself doing, like staying back after school or going out to eat somewhere after reaching home.

Think back about it a few years, I don't think after a day at school anyone would be so bored as to call me up just to have dinner with me, sure if it includes going to my house and playing some games, but never just simply sitting down, eating and chatting.

Then comes the part about being in a dream community. The kind of community that I like is actually a concentrated one, like a little group of people with the same interests, in other words, the kind of bond that my class has.

I appreciate being inside my class, even though there are some disagreeable individuals here and there, yes disagreements do happen, we are human after all, and the most anyone can do and what I'm trying to do is to accept it.

I got into another community, made solely for Otakus. Taiko Otakus to be precise. The world of general Otakus is way too big for me to thrive in. That may be an exciting experience for some, meeting countless people with the slightly similar interests a you.

But not for me, what I prefer to do is to just have a small bunch of friends that are really close and concentrated, with the same interests or the same pasts. Just hanging out, having fun, be it using money or not. The feeling is amazing.

Every social circle I have, I try to expand, make an imact on, create recognition, and not too long after joining Taiko Dojo, I have already made a name for myself. Not that I'm proud of the name that they have given me.

I hope to continue surviving in this little community of dedicated players, along with the other small social circles where I don't have to remember too many people's names, too may people's faces, too many people's birthdays.

I guess I'm just not really all that socialable, though how much I seem like it, or at least I feel that I am. I just hope that I don't turn into someone hatable someday, complaining too much about things that are out of my reach, or blaming things that aren't even there.

Or perhaps this being named Ricky just simply wishes he can be done and over with this community he is currently in, and move on to another country, realizing his dreams and creating even greater dreams.

So what does it really mean to move on? Is it to leave your past friends behind and leave them to rot in the back of your brain? I think not. I think moving on really means not binding your partners down with your stupid pleas and whines.

I'm sure as hell that they don't really want to go, that they would not want to leave anyone behind, with a pitiful memory of leaving. Unless you guys are such bad friends, that they can really leave you behind without saying a word of regret.

But what is there to be done? It is all part and parcel of growing up, all part and parcel of working towards something you want to be when you grow up. Part and parcel of the cycle of human's dreams. It's unavoidable, so much so that it must not be broken.

Imagine a world where Ricky never played games, imagine a world where Ricky was actually a jock, with his naturally big body he plays Rugby, Soccer, Sepak Takraw, Badminton and Basketball to Youth National level.

Imagine Ricky that is well versed in talking, a Ricky that became a philosopher, a Ricky that talks sense into the stupid generation of humans he is living with today. A Ricky that changed the world, a Ricky that made a difference.

Imagine Ricky that was indecisive, unable to think what bright future he should uphold within his dreams, he loaf around, drinks, smokes, tries his best to make up his mind, but is carried too far away from a normal life that he just rots.

Imagine a Ricky that was not into anime, instead, he finds his life in music, in creating, playing, and composing music. Any kind of music, be it classical, metal, or rap. A Ricky that became famous as a composer, a Ricky that was a big deal.

Imagine Ricky becoming a teacher. Loving the land that he lived on so much, he imparted knowledge that he already bears into the minds of the younger generation, allowing them to proceed on in life, and making their choices as well.

Now imagine a Ricky that is just like him right now, what kind of future will he hold? What kind of legends will he write? What kind of music will be playing in the background? What style of clothing will he wear in the future?

Out of so many possibilities, there is only one thing that strikes out. That your future is bright, it's gleaming with possibilities, it's rustic, hybrid, dynamic, and just overflowing with possibilities. That is the future everyone dreamed of.

But why are there so many of the unemployed in the world if the future is really so bright? Why do people choose to pick up odd jobs when they grow up? Why are some people given less chance to shine rather than the others?

It simply depends on the actions that you take, the theory of cause and effect. If there was no cause in the first place, then there would be no effect taking place afterwards. Even if the cause is out of your reach, you should still embrace the effect.

Don't try to fight for your rights, because all you're doing is causing another chain to happen. Worsening the condition is a really bad move to pull when that's the only thing you can do. Instead of always looking for ways to destroy, how about think of ways to create?

Give in a little bit, be nicer to others, and perhaps, just perhaps, they might give back something to you in the future, be it a nice thing or not. Don't think that everything that you do is nice, because others may not feel the same way as you do.

Even if you're talking to someone you totally hate with your heart, just endure it, keep it all in, be matured enough to stomach everything that is given to you. That is the true way of leading your life. That, is the road to a bright future.

Job opportunities, realtionships, partnership deals. Anything may happen in this world. Just make sure you're the kind to actually bother about others. But you must know how to choose carefully. Choose the ones that won't disadvantage your karma.

I sound like I'm preachng already don't I? But that's the way I intend to live my life right now. Or at least, strive towards completing my life with such vigour. And guess what? I don't need a fricking religion to keep me in check, just my own willpower.